crazy !!!!

i don't know, why i always cry. i cried for no reason, in my cry i smile cause nothing. sometime, i feel i'm crazy. i feel there's somehing wrong with my soul. i think, i became abnormal person. maybe it because i feel so lonely in my deep heart. my smile, it's not really smile.
i don't know, why he is really mean to me. i've spent many years with him, maybe that is make how much he mean to me. i never getting bored eventhough i was see him for thousand times.
but, i can cry because a little things. and now, i tired ! i tired to cry all night.
i just want a simple happiness, caue i think happy is simple. it is when he always never getting bored to me, no matter what happen. i think i was crazy !!!!